As I sit here this morning, watching my husband play with our daughter, my heart melts. He’s the best daddy to our little princess. We are so lucky to have him. If you had told me four or five years ago that I’d marry my high school crush and have an absolutely beautiful daughter together, I would have fallen over in disbelief. Sometimes I still can’t believe that it happened. I thought we would never be any more than friends to one another.
My Husband, Matt, and I have been friends since I was a freshman in high school and he was a sophomore. I always had a thing for guys that were older than me. At the time we were so bashful and nervous around one another. I always met him at his car after cheer practice last period to talk. When in all actuality we didn’t say much at all. I was fine with just being in his presence. I’m surprised that didn’t scare him off. Over time we became great friends talking every day and every night. It wasn’t until I started dating a guy in the grade below me, that I thought I was in love with, that we kind of lost touch. Let’s just call that younger guy Alex. I was some kind of crazy over Alex. Looking back I can’t quite pin what it was that lured me to that guy… I guess it was the fact that he was a nice guy.
It was the summer before my senior year. Matt messaged me and told me he got accepted to a college not too far away. He also mentioned that he would be leaving at the end of the summer to live on campus up there. Matt asked me to see a movie with him before he had to leave for college. I asked my parents (they had already met Matt in the past) if I could go and they said yes. Now I had to ask Alex.
Alex knew we were friends. At the time I felt the need of his permission and acceptance to make plans and see my friend before he left. He said yes. Thinking back I don’t know why I felt that way. I had never let a boyfriend get in the way of me having or seeing friends before. So I’m not sure why it started with him.
One weekend at the end of that summer I also saw Matt off to college. Though we were just friends it was much harder than I thought.
Some part of me has always believed we would cross paths again. We kept in touch for a little while but once school got back into action we spoke less and less.
In February of my senior year I broke things off with Alex. I had changed a lot in that year and I realized he wasn’t who I wanted to spend my life with. He was only another chapter to my life. Just because I didn’t want to spend my life with him doesn’t mean it wasn’t hard. Because trust me it was. We still had classes together and I was living with him at the time. So that meant packing up and moving out. A whole other situation of stress I had to deal with.
So I moved out. All my life consisted of was school and work. Work was a great place to be because I was with my best friend. Shortly after moving out my best friend introduced me to a guy at work. We all spent a lot of time together. And I slowly fell for him. It wasn’t until we were on our way back from a group vacation, that I caught him texting not so appropriate texts to his ex-girlfriend. That was a big slap in the face since he was in a relationship with me. He just wasn't good at hiding things. Or lying for that matter... I have boundaries values and morals, and I expected them to be respected. I just hadn't realized yet, that i was dating a 'boy' not a man. Needless to say that relationship didn’t last.
My heart had been broken and I had been through so much in the past few months. I had wasted so much time on these guys. I was to the point where I figured “I’ll just not date for a little while”. I was starting to believe that my Dream Guy was not going to be found here in this town.
So much so, that I had applied and got accepted to a school in NC, to escape this tiny town. Honestly I just wanted a fresh start or maybe even just an extended vacation. Well little did I know, a couple weeks later, that I would be getting a message from Matt on Facebook. My face lit up.
It read…
“Hey! I haven’t seen you in forever! How come you never talk to me anymore?”
As if I knew he was trying to get a hold of me all along. (my number had changed, and he rarely used Facebook.) Little did he know I was single and still SOOO in to him! Things evolved so quickly from there. We connected on a whole other level, emotionally and physically. We fell in love, moved in together, got pregnant, got married, had a baby, and fell deeper in love. Oh and we're still in this "tiny town". I’m so in love with the idea of falling asleep in his arms and waking to his face everyday! I am so Blessed
My Husband, Matt, and I have been friends since I was a freshman in high school and he was a sophomore. I always had a thing for guys that were older than me. At the time we were so bashful and nervous around one another. I always met him at his car after cheer practice last period to talk. When in all actuality we didn’t say much at all. I was fine with just being in his presence. I’m surprised that didn’t scare him off. Over time we became great friends talking every day and every night. It wasn’t until I started dating a guy in the grade below me, that I thought I was in love with, that we kind of lost touch. Let’s just call that younger guy Alex. I was some kind of crazy over Alex. Looking back I can’t quite pin what it was that lured me to that guy… I guess it was the fact that he was a nice guy.
It was the summer before my senior year. Matt messaged me and told me he got accepted to a college not too far away. He also mentioned that he would be leaving at the end of the summer to live on campus up there. Matt asked me to see a movie with him before he had to leave for college. I asked my parents (they had already met Matt in the past) if I could go and they said yes. Now I had to ask Alex.
Alex knew we were friends. At the time I felt the need of his permission and acceptance to make plans and see my friend before he left. He said yes. Thinking back I don’t know why I felt that way. I had never let a boyfriend get in the way of me having or seeing friends before. So I’m not sure why it started with him.
One weekend at the end of that summer I also saw Matt off to college. Though we were just friends it was much harder than I thought.
Some part of me has always believed we would cross paths again. We kept in touch for a little while but once school got back into action we spoke less and less.
In February of my senior year I broke things off with Alex. I had changed a lot in that year and I realized he wasn’t who I wanted to spend my life with. He was only another chapter to my life. Just because I didn’t want to spend my life with him doesn’t mean it wasn’t hard. Because trust me it was. We still had classes together and I was living with him at the time. So that meant packing up and moving out. A whole other situation of stress I had to deal with.
So I moved out. All my life consisted of was school and work. Work was a great place to be because I was with my best friend. Shortly after moving out my best friend introduced me to a guy at work. We all spent a lot of time together. And I slowly fell for him. It wasn’t until we were on our way back from a group vacation, that I caught him texting not so appropriate texts to his ex-girlfriend. That was a big slap in the face since he was in a relationship with me. He just wasn't good at hiding things. Or lying for that matter... I have boundaries values and morals, and I expected them to be respected. I just hadn't realized yet, that i was dating a 'boy' not a man. Needless to say that relationship didn’t last.
My heart had been broken and I had been through so much in the past few months. I had wasted so much time on these guys. I was to the point where I figured “I’ll just not date for a little while”. I was starting to believe that my Dream Guy was not going to be found here in this town.
So much so, that I had applied and got accepted to a school in NC, to escape this tiny town. Honestly I just wanted a fresh start or maybe even just an extended vacation. Well little did I know, a couple weeks later, that I would be getting a message from Matt on Facebook. My face lit up.
It read…
“Hey! I haven’t seen you in forever! How come you never talk to me anymore?”
As if I knew he was trying to get a hold of me all along. (my number had changed, and he rarely used Facebook.) Little did he know I was single and still SOOO in to him! Things evolved so quickly from there. We connected on a whole other level, emotionally and physically. We fell in love, moved in together, got pregnant, got married, had a baby, and fell deeper in love. Oh and we're still in this "tiny town". I’m so in love with the idea of falling asleep in his arms and waking to his face everyday! I am so Blessed